Reflecting on the week

Its quite difficult to explain the effect a situation like this can have on you. The stress is quite unimaginable. One of the most frustrating things is all the waiting. Even when you know people are fighting for you. Days go by slowly, you forget meals and food. Other important things just fade into the background. Obviously you sometimes question what you are doing, I have thought about the situation frequently but I know if the same thing happened again I would act in the same way.

Other problems are when people won't talk to you and you are totally fobbed off. You have to learn to be persistent and suspicious of everything. We have had our hopes dashed a few times and this roller-coaster is just heartbreaking.

My wife spends most of her time crying, the more the days pass the worse it seems to get. She barely sleeps and is tormented by all that has been happening. As the days pass, the more distant she becomes. All of this has had a very bad effect on her health and wellbeing, its on her mind 24 hours a day and there is nothing I can do to make her feel any better. All I can do is keep fighting for Hudson's return, for Hudson to be back where he belongs and see him lay beside my wife again.

Since this all began on Monday I have lost 10lbs, sure I need to loose some weight but not this way...it just shows what a severe effect stress can have on your body. Even my wife who is currently bedbound has lost weight, I have seen her get weaker and its terrible.

All we want is for Hudson to come back home, for all of this hell to end and for life to start to get back to how it was.

I would not wish the last week on anyone. The stupid thing about it all is there was no point to it at all. We are Human beings and sometimes we can make mistakes. One mistake we haven't made is to campaign for Hudson back. I am disappointed in Cats Protection both locally and Nationally. Nationally it is impossible to get anyone to talk to you, if the complaints manager can't handle complaints whats the point? I think that no one can know what we have experienced but ourselves.

Charities that work with animals as much as they are there for animals need to remember that behind the animals there are people who may have made some of the hardest decisions of there lives and in doing so may have made a mistake. I think that everyone involved with charities needs to think about why they are there doing what they are doing. Are they there for there clients or themselves?

If someone is fighting as hard as myself and Rosie are for Hudson, there is a good reason. People do not start campaigning for something over a whim. We thought long and hard before going to the press. We could have quite easily gone a lot sooner but held out hoping that someone either nationally or locally would communicate with us. We hope that this weekend means that this will finally end. We do have a bad feeling that it wont though. If they refuse again we will continue to fight.

We are so appreciative of the support we have had from local people and businesses. The press also have been fantastic also. The majority of people we talk to are as confused as we are to why this is all going on. There are of course people who do not agree with us and we respect there opinions. I would like these people to think about two things. If we did not trust or respect what CP were doing we would never have homed any cats with them. Also no one would go through what we have in the past week unless they really felt that an injustice had been done.

Myself and Rosie are very private people we do not want are lives talked about or discussed all over the country. We feel what was an easily sortable situation has got out of control due to a lack of Communication, Compassion and common sense. Lent is almost upon us a time of reflection we pray that by this time this will all be over and Hudson will be home with us.